Magic Ball

Few days ago I met my friend and her 5 years old. The child was so energetic that we both were tired to keep the him busy. the Boy was irritated as we were busy in our talks while he wanted us to play and answer his curiosities. He was bored of playing with his cars and few other limited stock of toys, he came to me and asked for a ball but i had no ball or cars at my place to let him play. He was little upset, I made a ball out of handkerchief but he got bored with the same after a while. My fried started reciting story to the little one. "The Magician" the story was of magician who could fulfill wishes of needy ones like he would give food, cloth, candies to needy ones and so on but when a person who tried to cheat the magician by falsely portraying himself to be a poor person only getting his needs satisfied without taking any effort, the magician made him money with his magic and decided not to use magic to complete his wishes anymore. The kid suddenly stopped his mother and asked me can he expects magic as he was not having ball then means he was needy and was'nt lying with anyone. I exclaimed, why not? you would get a ball with magic! but his question was genuine where was the magician? 

We both started staring at each other as we didn't knew from where the magician would appear? and I had already assured him that he can manifest his toy with magic. suddenly something clicked me and I took the child near a place where we worship god and pointing towards Ganpati bappa, with confidence I told him, here is a biggest magician! he can help you if you pray with trust. The kid was amused and with twinkling eyes he prayed "Bappa can you give me ball please? I have many at home but right now i do'nt have any to play with. I do not lie please give me ball" He started finding ball here and there when I informed him he will take some time to check if some one has extra ball so that he can arrange it for you. Little boy believed my words and as per my instructions started playing with other toys and of-course with mobile games. 

My friend was regretting my decision of taking him to god for manifesting a ball as she felt " it would work" and if it would work she had apprehension of her son being dependent upon god without taking any efforts and if it would work (of which she was sure about) he would loose his trust on god. I was not worried about it and ensure her that magic will happen and if not little boy would forget this after a while. My friend was sure that I never grew up as i believe on such things. I smiled at her and she declare that we wont order food at home but will go out and eat so that she can buy ball to save his child's trust on god and later would say god gave her idea of buying the same.  I felt sorry for the act after looking at her concerned. I prayed universe please help little one to manifest  as struggling is not life taking steps, declaring wish to god/universe and believing that its coming to us is life. 

We were about to leave for lunch when a little one declared to Bappa " I am coming back and i still need ball please help me with the same. I am coming soon" We went had nice lunch (but couldn't buy ball) and returned home while we reached my place I found few kinds near my compound and after inquiring they informed he they were searching their ball but they could find the same and hence they left. I felt irritated on those kids as they reminded little one about ball. My friend was worried as he felt now kid will again ask for ball and he would not loose faith on god. I tried to pacify her stating you dont have to save trust god is cable you just relax 

As we both wanted to chit chat and we knew that we would get few moments after little one would sleep and inorder to steal few moments we started preparing him for noon nap, but he started running and playing around as he went to balcony my friend rushed after him to get him on bed but she was amused to see what the kid was holding in his hand. the little son was dancing with joy with a ball in his right hand. He ran to me and pointing to ball he said magic ball. All 3 of us started laughing. I was relieved as always universe and bappa stood with boy and strengthened his believe over manifestation. I clapped for ball and told a boy that, he has acquired it with magic and he could create more magic if he believes on magic, only key is he has to believe and be patient and keep taking actions towards his wishes. All 3 of us laughed and played with ball the whole noon.

While he was leaving my house he kept the ball at my door step and asked me to returned it to bappa as he had many balls at home and if he lies, bappa would not create magic for him next time, moreover, many such kids may be in need of ball. I said ok. I felt, we always keep praying to god but do not usually take minute to thank for what he has given and do not think that someone else must be in want of something too. what we get we never pray that other should get that pleasure too. The little boy thanked god and left the ball for someone needy, his little gesture taught me a lot.

My friend called me few days ago just to inform me that, her son is taking part in some competition of which he was scared of earlier and Bappa incidence has given him confidence that he can do things as bappa answers his prayers, she only reminded me of magic ball incidence.

Further, my friend further informed me she is happy for magic ball but was skeptical about her son becoming dependent on magic leaving behind all hard work and was generally discussing as how she tries to make him understand importance of hard work. What? I exclaimed! I explained her its great that he believes on miracles as only those who trust miracles happens to them. I made a point that i too believe in miracles and its awesome to create magic in life. instead of injecting little chap with word " hard work" i requested her to think why not informing him that she should take all necessary steps to achieve whatever he wants to create and then sit and receive? I only wanted to convey, 
instead  "Hard work has no alternative in life" can we think "Till I achieve my goal I should not stop working on it , we succeed nothing like it if we fail lets try it again as we are here to learn and have fun." 

My friend finally agreed to this and promised to chose her words conscientiously so as to avoid infusing any of harsh emotions that she might have bough from her elders or friends. 

This discussion gave us new perspective to look at life.

happy day

After finishing my morning household chores I was amazed as my wall clock was showing I had good 20 minutes in my hand which I can utilize as “my time”.

What Happy Morning! 

I decided to sit quietly and meditate for while but suddenly I had nudge to make a cup of strong coffee. I immediately followed my heart and in few minutes, was in my terrace with a cup of hot coffee. Trees, chirping of birds, butterflies, cats, flowers and every bit of nature made me fresh and happier. My heart was jumping with joy with a sense of peace and serenity. 

I felt everything was always there, always around and willing to extend joy and energy to live (प्राणशक्ती) but I was too busy to even notice it.

Me 1 was telling me its amazing as you are noticing it once in blue moon but if u start spending time with it daily it will become routine and this instant freshness and magic would vanish and taking out time from your work for such things on regular basis would be bad idea as that time can be utilized in fine tuning your work.

I felt right. My work also gives me pleasure but when it has become routine, today I felt, I was too busy to notice nature around me. Moreover with fantasy of spending time with awesome nature I cannot leave my work.

me 2 intervene with another thought, you don't have to stop or even disturb your work schedule at all but u need life force to move on and achieve, which can only be absorb from nature around.

My mind had started games again. I felt little nervous  as I was about to drifted in confusion plotted by my mind. I wanted to leave the place and the trap my mind was about set. I decided to get back to work but woow a tiny yellow bird attracted my attention.. I could not move a bit.

My me 2 again probed me .. The way you feeling right away is'nt awesome? nature can never become routine as it changes every second the beautiful yellow bird which u just notice has already flown away, that colorful tiny butterfly is not letting you close your eye lashes, oh look at that flight amazing and that energetic squirrel, where is that small dark bird? oh its already hid inside branches of tree, I really did not notice how big these trees have grown. 

Me 2 took me on ride, within few minutes i felt lost in nature, centered and calm. I suddenly realized a sparrow was knitting her nest. what amazing builder she was! which degree did she obtain? life taught her. how, when and where to build nest? 

In the middle of summer as well nature was beautiful gulmohar was smiling at me. he was always there to calm my eyes in summer but I had forget to acknowledged. I promised myself to spend atlist 15 minutes a week with nature to absorb life force. I had no mobile or wrist watch with me but exactly after 20 minutes I was all set to get ready and heed to my office.

no alarm no clock was better than my own mind. those last 5 minutes or so I spent acknowledging beauty around and expressing my gratitude to that highest energy or the creator. 

I could feel my mind was calm, centered and focus and i was set for starting a beautiful day

And the beautiful day began in most effective way. :)

Tmhari Sullu

Two days ago while I was returning home after finishing tiring busy day I happened to met a lady, who was weaving a sweater while others were annoyed due to over crowed train compartment. A girl standing next to me initiated talks with that lady and inquire if she was making it as her hobby or she sales it? The lady explained her its her hobby and it gives her happiness and sense of satisfaction so she makes it and her hobby also pays her. The girl was fascinated by the colour combination and appreciated same. This colourful conversation was continued as the girl with a big disappointment confronted that, she love to paint but being manager in XYZ MNC she cannot make and sale it as it wont suit her status, but she does painting secretly at home in her own company. The cheerful lady started laughing and reveled that she was serving State Government as Gazetted officer and work in XXX department. She travels by second class in train as she has group there, she had just missed her regular train and boarded this one. 

The girl was amazed to hear it and so do I! The girl further probed the lady inquiring if her relatives are fine with her earnings out of her hobby? The lady exchanged mysterious smile  and instead of answering she asked a question in return. she asked the girl if she was on the earth to lead her own life of life of other? 

Girl: its my life obviously I am here to live my own life.

Lady: so why you feel, you always need to sacrifice for other?

Girl : because the lives of my dear ones are  interlinked with my life exactly the way you interlace these big threads for making a sweater. I am one of the tread and my live is sweater and without those other threads, I am nothing. 

Lady: absolutely.  You have great skills of explaining things. It correct that, all threads are necessary to make beautiful sweater. But we woman often forget that, every thread is important and so we are!. We tend to adjust with others opinion if or if not we feel good about it. If you the one tread is not happy not energetic how would you hold others together to complete your sweater?

Girl: isn't that being selfish?

Lady: not at all. If you don't respect yourself, your feelings, your own liking how could you contribute to others? make your relatives understand worth of your emotions. If you are sacrificing ng your hobbies, creativity then my dear you are murdering happiness attached to it, which infact a barrier for you to give more love and happiness to your dear ones.

your another concerned of matching your professional status with your hobby. You work for money and money can buy anything but satisfaction and contentment. money is necessity for leading physical life and these hobbies are necessary for having healthy mind which intern necessary of stabilizing your carrier. So never underestimate your hobbies just let the creativity flow through you to empower you as human being. 

I felt amazed how the lady was looking towards her life and despite of finishing equally tiring day at 9.00pm she was as cheerful as one would be at 9.00am. Initially I was listening to them just as entertainment but the lady explain life and force me to think about my emotional being. I wanted to contribute in the discussion to but unfortunately my destination was arrived and I have to get down from the train. I got down from the train with sense of contentment. 

I promised myself to be happy when I heard a song from movie "Tumhari Sullu". My face was lit up when I remembered, my take away from movie " Follow your heart". Sullu the middle aged lady filled with enthusiasm and joy and happiness. The character like sullu who had dream to fly high and achieve something to satisfy her soul. She had no judgements or perception regarding any work. whatever the Sullu was doing in her life was only to satisfy her soul and celebrate her being.  

What a beautiful message Sullu has left for us! I felt as if I met real life sullu who was following her heart, working at prestigious post and balancing her heart and mind. I realized I had point of view that in reality no one can follow their heart but this real life sullu has taught me a lot. 

Journey with URJA Wellness and Joy

In early 2017, my old buddy Dipti introduced me to  a whatsApp group named Urja. I was initially reluctant to join the group due to my religious beliefs and illusions. All my doubts vanished after I joined the group, I become one with the URJA family within few days. Fun activities like book discussions, No sugar challenge, 5 am Club etc connected me with the group and I started enjoying discussions and positive quotes on the group. I was introduced to the group when I was low on confidence, choked and was witnessing complete negativity around me. these activities made me shift my attention from my pain to positivity .

My true journey with Urja started with a beautiful WhatsApp workshop facilitated by Ashwini named " believe in yourself" she shook our belief system by making us question each and every belief and there started my self help journey.  I realized there is much to work on me rather than on situations around.  The journey of meeting myself started right then and soon after that I also started witnessing motivating situations and people around. I started feeling good about many things but alas, my feel good was blown away when I witnessed miscarriage. I was devastated and felt there was no life and energy left in me. I was shocked, chocked and all set to play victim, when my mother asked me to get out of the situation as there was nothing to cherish in that situation and hence it was useless to get stuck in it. 

while I was depressed and de-focused had an opportunity to attend meditation workshop facilitated by Shubhada. This Meditation workshop was turning point for me.. Shubhada! a real pure and kind soul kept on following up regarding my meditation practice. She helped me and showed me path when I was stuck and was not able to meditate. I shared many experiences and situations with her to which she gave patient hearing. My meditation practice in few months made me experience the magical world. Shubhda not only helped me to come out of my grief and pain but also made me take up new opportunities to let the life flow.

I happened to meet Charuta the other admin and one of the few strongest woman I have ever met. This girl encouraged me to touch one of my top 5 goals of life "to write a book". We had discussions on many topics when she made me understand not to postpone anything which one wish to do for any specific event of life. This postponing activity blocks the energy around. I learnt very helpful concept of feeling heavy and light at heart which I would cherish for my life.

Urja Goup offered immense pleasure through Nisha and her buddha doodles, through books, angelic experiences, discussions, affirmations and most importantly self help workshops offered by admins. these workshops offered me pleasure, positive approach and helped me to keep the hope alive. Dot Mandala workshop taught participants magic of colours, Numerology workshop explained number magic and how number story describes personality traits. 

The Access Bars workshop was awesome experiences which helped me to understand we buy point of views of others even with respect to issues for which we are desperate to achieve. I always used to felt questions make life complicated and confused but access taught me to be in question mode and go with the flow.  I am thankful to Kunal and Shubhada who pushed me for Access bar and thanks to Ashwini facilitator/teacher.

I am expressing my feeling, experiences in such a fearless manner this is just because of energy which our group emits. I had never thought I would start a blog and write such posts until Charuta made me understand importance of following ones heart.

There is a long way to go and grow with URJA but I am grateful to URJA family who have touched my life for good. I owe to Dipti for introducing me to  the group which is helping me find myself, my capabilities in all new ways. This group is offering URJA (an energy) to live life in graceful manner.

2017

We are on last day of 2017!
2017 was perfect blend of all possible human emotions for me. It started with  colours, music, fun, happiness as there was a marriage at home. Later in time it took crazy turns by taking health of near ones to toss, hospitalization, pain, loss of relatives and grief. The year was galloping with different events and situations mixed with happiness and pain at the same time. 2017 was pouring immense love through enough rain while I was drifted in grief, pain and frustration.  I was unable to cope up with dynamics of time and events, when divine plotted a lovely, kind soul to guide me. Plotted was rather an apt word as universe was exactly knowing where I was heeding to and what was needed the most to get me back on my track. I met Shubhada, who taught me a skill to deal with dynamics by was of meditation. Her compassionate words and support initiated healing process in me.

In early 2017, my old buddy Dipti introduced me to one whatsApp group named Urja. I was reluctant to join the group but then with passage of time I realized the group infact was extending URJA (energy) to live with grace. The admins are always keen to encourage others through their professional activities and courses. Shubhada, one of the admins offered her compassionate support and made me focus and cherish whatever I had or I was capable of earning. She made me understand the need of surrendering and not controlling every aspect of life.   

I decided not to play victim mode and when I decided to take step forward for making my life better universe indeed helped me. Things started taking good turns without me be able to understand. I happened to meet my earlier employer in one marriage reception who informed me about courses he was initiating and by October 2017 I was certified by Government of India (NIESBUD) as Medico-legal trainer and consultant as well as counselor. These new step gifted few more persons to cherish. It was an opportunity to interact with many professionals in informal way. Many of them while informal interactions spoke about positivist, trust and power of law of attraction. These courses not only added to my resume but also in my PR.

One of my girls in the gang happened to propose a vacation together while I was thinking of catching with my girls.These small getaways added more joyous feathers in to my journey in 2017. like Urja group I happened to introduced to one more group named motherly wisdom in 2017 by my sister. I was been guided to travel to Pune for the workshop by Mr. Shantanu Joshi. what an amazing workshop it was ! he explained relationships and unfolded many aspects in a delicate manner. His talk was again enlightening.

what a beautiful year it was! It taught me to laugh my heart out, to attract like minded people, not to play victim, to concentrate on solutions more than problem, to understand that it is OK to ask for help, to meditate, to connect to friends and many more. This year made me believe in synchronicity and positivist. 2017 was amazing year as it taught me gratitude!

I am thankful to all those who crossed my journey in 2017 and for all the learning which I received from videos and books. 2017 indeed made me experience absolute pain but I was also taken care by universe by arranging right guidance at right time.

Bye bye 2017.
waiting for 2018 and magic associated with. Hope the year would unfold more opportunities..

Counselling was part of my job being a lawyer. I have always loved to communicate and contribute whatever little I could in people's lives. I never dreamt of taking counselling professionally but few months prior after completing my certification course offered by Government of India (NIESBUD) I decided otherwise.

I was skeptical to devote my time and energy in this counselling field, but something inside me pushed me to take up this assignment and I fixed a date for conselling session with one of my client who happen to go through a divorce.

My objective was to make couple talk to each other as my experience suggests that, whenever any couple decides for separation they generally talk about and not with each other. With few exception root cause of breakdown of reltion is growing egos too big to see beyond it. These egos makes  relation so toxic that without special effective measures and parties willingness, the reltion cannot be turned again into a trusting one. 

I froze the date, but was not getting clarity as how I was going to build it beyond typical session of marriage counselling to bring couple to talking terms. As the date started nearing my so called rationale started asking me to quit. I was skeptical, but my mentor Shubhada while discussing some other issue asked me to be in question mode instead of jumping to conclusion. How timely guidence it was!

The next day while I was meditating I remembered her words, Where upon seeking guidence from shubhda she helped me draft questions. I kept asking this question as 'how do I contribute to unite X and Y? 'what Contribution can I be for the highest good of Mr. X and Mrs. Y'? ' How do I design my session to give best whatever I could? and requested uiverse for guidence. 

My mind was still unsure about struture of my session. I was sure that before counselling i would get my guidence and if I dont, then conducting typical session might be my answer. The next morning meditation was awesome wherein I saw my office diary with detailed 35 minutes session in 4 parts with 2 activities and one breathing technique. 

I was unsure about what I saw in meditation as I believed it was my mind playing tricks rather than universe guiding me. However, shubhada advised me to ask more questions for clarity and believe in intuitions. I followed her guidance but was still not sure about the structure of session. Two days prior to my session after finishing my court cases I started searching some material on internet during which I saw an image of Owl which brought a feeling of comfort and confidence about this session. 

I conducted session with confidence as I had researched every activity which I was to use in session. I used 'breathing together technique' as activity in my session which showed amazing effect on the couple. After this small activity of breathing together for 5 minutes, they were quite for around a minute and thereafter while I offered them a cup of coffee and a time to talk to each other when they seem ready. They confessed me after session and even by sending feed back on whatsApp that they could speak without any anger, irritation, annoyance to each other after long time. 

I received their feed back and they were happy about session but I was upset as they couldnot be reunited. I informed it to shubhada, who very calmly said, this opportunity had come to you to make to take up assignments without holding it back for some other aspect of your life. 

I received a call from couple informing me that they could say bye to each other in peaceful manner and referred one more couple for counselling. I felt shubhada was right as this assignment had come to me to make me learn something. I learnt many facts about breathing techniques and what wonder it plays. It offers peace and rationality in any given situation. It also allows one to be open for discussion on current topic keeping aside all judgements and prejudices. 

My experiences in meditation are magical and this sessions actually affirmed my faith on meditation and I am seeing it as self help and self healing technique.

I too got new client.

Be calm and trust yourself

A friend of mine upon hearing that I do practice meditation started laughing at me and said," I don't believe you adopting an old-fashioned path. Meditation is meant for age old people and monks. She said your approach has been changed instead of I shall see how its not happening for me to it shall happen at proper time. Get up girl and do something its nothing but procrastination." she said.

First of all I thanked her in my mind, if she could sense my approach has been changed in this direction I am happy as i wanted it to be like this. I didn't say a word to her and left but today while meditating I felt the need to pen down what meditation is all about for me?

Whatever little I have learned from my mentor shubhada, I feel meditation is meeting my real self. She taught me techniques of quieting mind and during many interaction with her I perceived meditation is being in present moment. Its observing every detail of what u do in day to day life. Its a beautiful conversation with oneself. Its understanding the beauty and power within onself.

My meditation practice is an infant yet but I have already started witnessing shifts in my being. I had a beautiful and perfect plan for my life: to conceive a year after my marriage, to enjoy pregnancy, have child and thereafter again start with career. I had planned every bit of it. I felt I had answers for all how's then. But I have not yet conceived. Its been 5 years to my marriage, it wasn't just happening and when happened I had miscarriage, I was frustrated and in devastated state of mind.

I learnt that I had rather had no control over my life. I was full with negative and destructive thoughts. I was not able to find any way out, suddenly all my girls in gang were either pregnant or delivering babies. Despite of everything something inside me was pushing me to find peace. I was in pain when I attended shubhada's meditation workshop and after workshop I could feel little lightness in my heart. In search of peace I started practicing meditation. I tried meditating with you tube videos, siting on particular place with closed eyes, tried to follow Gabrielle's videos as well. I realized that meditation was offering me inner peace and balance. I started loving it as those 30 minutes of my morning ritual indeed support me to start a day a fresh without having yesterday's burden.

My meditation practice was helping me knowing myself and it made me learn how far I had come from my own being. I learnt observing trees and birds sitting in balcony or even folding cloths with full attention gave same result of 30 minutes meditation with close eyes. I started realizing that when i am not controlling anything things have started flowing again.

Yes, my attitude has changed and I have started trusting that, I shall be pregnant soon while handling my career responsibilities. My approach towards life has changed as I know things would fall in place at divine time. This approach always generates soothing feeling which indeed require in every walk of life.

So far my conception is concerned, I realized that, I was expecting a new life when I was lifeless, choked and was trapped in situation. When I started praying in meditation that I wanted to come out of this emotional trap and started asking question How to make my life flow again to create baby, I started getting answers. I met charuta and shubhada in person who encouraged me to take up opportunities rather than postponing them till conception. these ladies full of life and energy taught me a magic of gratitude they made be believe that life shall flow rhythmically if i believe my intuitions. Ashwini since few days kept posting on group weisp? I never understood it was sign for me till I saw my whatsapp window of Urja group in meditation with this post. Ashwini offered me a key with the question what else is possible? this question is changing something around what is not known to me, yet I could feel it. 

I have now started doing everything which gives happiness to me and creates positive energy around. I now have courage to accept things the way they are and have faith that I shall conceive soon as there is life in my breath ones again. 

This practice is certainly not old-fashioned one neither its meant for monks but its for u, me and all who chose to lead content life. Now I am learning to be in question mode and It shall help me too.
What else is possible?